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Nothingoh steal away my heart. 
the air that i breath. 
marry belief. 
i can not see. 
disbelief. 
i can agree. 
lines between. 
all those that counted. 
all things that matter. 
brain splatter. 
brain matter. 
brains matter. 
seen here after. 
dying faster. 
dead here after.
You.You. 
It’s not true right? It can’t be. No, it’s just a dream, just a nightmare. When I pinch my cheek and open my eyes, everything will be fine, right? Ah, yes.  It’s fine. I wonder what fun things we will do tomorrow. What story’s you’ll tell and what story’s I’ll tell you. I don’t know what future will show me, but I bet it will be lots of fun! Because you’ll be there with me, right? Everything is so nice when I’m with you. You’re so sweet and strong, so kind and nice, so funny and friendly. Oh, I can’t wait to hear your voice, to feel your warmth, to see your face again.
You…
 
It was no dream, right? You did truly leave me here alone. You really left me with only shattered memories. You really, really did that. How could you! I trusted you! Do you even think about my feelings, you selfish bastard! Yes, that’s what you are, a little worm! I hate you! I hate you! I hate you! Oh,
Umcan you dance on the moon? 
or would you die? 
would you have a better chance at life? 
to cry. 
to hide. 
away from reality. 
escape from the tragedies. 
of life. 
eternities. 
come play with me. 
die for a fee. 
struggle for a fee. 
suffer for free. 
conscious bleed. 
unconscious see.
wondering. 
dream. 
heaven. 
imaginary. 
hell. 
not scary. 
so i bury. 
tragic set free.
No Ideadreaming of screaming. 
everything seeming. 
dreaming and screaming. 
wondering if you will leave me. 
grieving. 
teasing. 
can you really see me. 
hear me. believing. 
my moments of dreaming. 
of living. my giving. 
trying to be so willing. 
feeling. 
being. 
breaking through. 
wishing you knew.
dont readcrossing bloody cross. bodies. 
count your losses.
kings. 
who the boss is. 
Gods. 
Who the universe is. 
sin. 
brings a familiar grins.
for sin. 
is even your purest justice. 
disobeying brings suffer cautious. '
count your losses. 
who your boss is.
My feelingsThere is not a day that goes by where you are on my mind. Whether i’m worried or miss you or just thinking about just how much I love you. There are just so many things I want to do with you so many places we could go. There is just so much we have yet to experience together and I want to to and see it all. There is nothing more I want then you by my side. No one else in this world I could love as much as I love you and there is no one else I want to see laying next to me when I open my eyes in the morning. I want you all of you your good moods your bad moods and everything in between. I wanna be there for your good days and your bad da
RoseWhen the tears begin to fall,
I allow myself to weep.
When I try and try to forget
its the memories of you I keep.
A fire dances, burning me
but the pain is what I've asked for.
One more place i need to see,
to know I have you no more.
this longing, this ache,
one which I can't explain.
I feel it, and i know it is heartbreak
for i may never see you again.
We've parted, we've went our separate ways
and I know this, i know that it's true.
but i cant help it, because this is one of those days
when I'm really missing you.
Wishful Thinkinghave you ever had a dream? 
had a dream where it seems. 
where your king or queen. 
where trouble is nothing. 
and you have power over everything. 
have you ever had a dream? 
A thought? 
where life was special. 
family. 
friends. 
everyone so loving and helpful. 
where you didnt need a savior. 
no save me. 
no need to save her. 
we are happy. together. 
a life of gold. 
forever. 
this dream.
Drainedcutting is my solution. 
from the pain. 
through the tears. 
through the years. 
all this suffering. 
filling with pain. 
all for nothing. 
feeling so thirsty. 
feeling so worthless. 
not knowing what life is. 
alone through every crisis.
Jumbled ThoughtsGive me a chance
To understand
This pain you can only enhance
This pain I never planned

Let me swallow my feelings
The pain and misery starting to remain
Dont really know what is the meaning
To the fact Ill never be the same

Floating into the darkness
Everyone has stopped calling my name
Shouldnt have thought love could be so harmless
My own self to blame

Sing me a lullaby
Full of sweet memories
Where I never cry
Where Im at my sanctuary
The Car Crash on 2nd AvenueAnd the light would hit me like a car crash
but instead of crying and broken
I'd be exhilarated and praising
for whoever hit me with that ongoing car
And the driver would be Faith
and I wouldn't mind getting hurt
It's shove the shards of hope
Down my throat
And through my veins

Is that what it'd be like
To have Hope again?
FreedomTears ever so sweetly to taste, feel them run down my cheek...
The blade ever so cold, feel it run up and down my wrist.......
The blood so warm, feel it tickle my arm as it runs down it....
losing my sight,feel so cold as my body turns to ice.......
I see i now, i feel him now death sweet death...........
come take me away from all this pain for my soul wants to be as the air is free to blow as the sun is free to shine so warmly. ....
i miss the happy days those days where the sun shine so bright on my skin the smiles and cheer smiles the loving hugs the sweets given by love ones...but now seeing all the flash backs before the sweet death ap
IgnoreGo back to the art
Don't worry everything's fine
Go back to the art
Don't worry, trust time

No
Shush
Quiet
Stop
She's tired of these sugar coated lies
Just tell her the truth
She wants to open her eyes

Go back to the sketchbook
Don't worry everything's fine
Just trust sleep's illusion
Let death's cousin hug your mind
Rest in peaceYou walk in the door and sink to your knees
Let go of the pain that nobody sees
But no matter, how long you spend crying
Inside it hurts, and you just feel like dying
A voice is calling your head
As clear liquid drops are shed
I’m here, I promise, always and forever
I promise not to leave you ever
In the dark I hear you call my name
I’m slowly starting to go insane
You’re gone now, to a better place
But life without you is not the same
Rest in peace, I miss you so
In my heart I’ll never let you go
When relationships grows oldYou confuse me
Why do you say you love when you don't
You confuse me
Why do you say we'll grow old together and you know we won't
You confuse me
Why do you you say you care, yet you're never there
When will you own up to your word?
Why do play me like a cat plays a bird?
What is it that you want?
I say I love you and you act so blunt.
Why do you stay?
Why stick around?
You don't even try, but yet you turn my world upside down
We use to laugh, but now only I cry
This isn't working....
It's time to say bye
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Anxiety

Here I stand, on Earth today,
Not knowing what will happen tomorrow.
The sky is watching the things I say,
And the ground awaits my sorrow.

Higher beings, judging, watching,
Seeing to what I can handle.
They pull the strings, the puppeteers,
While I am seeing the accused dangle.

"How is it?" I ask, "How am I alive?"
I lie awake that night.
"Will I face the grave tomorrow?"
I panic and turn on the light.

A doctor, a nurse, medicine I need.
I have no pride nor greed.
I just wish for this terror to end,
And for happiness to seed.

See? I'm a nice girl.
Up to heaven I go!
Though, what the people tell me…
The truth I do not know.

My stomach aches, my heart breaks,
My breathing is shallow and quick.
"How is it?" I ask. "How am I alive?"
"Please tell me, what is the trick?"

Fear it is, that's the problem.
The trick is to feel the pain.
Get your mind on something else,
And it won't came back again.

A parent, a friend, comfort I need.
I do not follow or lead.
I have my own problems now,
"Why is it all about you!?!" I plead.

Will I get better? I will never know.
It comes and goes I say.
It's bad at night, and good at day.
I question my self all the time so…


Here I stand, on Earth today,
Not knowing what will happen tomorrow.
ground is listening to the things they say,
While the sky awaits my arrival.

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Anxietyby ~Lillian13

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Lately I've been feeling like this poem, and now that I write it I feel better... for the moment. I was just rewriting in chapter nine of my book and well, I was discribing some feeling my character was feeling and then I realized, I felt the same way. Inspired, I began to write down most of what I felt. It just feels better to let it out... ya know? I've always had a fear of death when I was a kid, and with the recent flu epidemic and a few trama-drama things at school must of triggered the fear again. I am getting better, I must admit, but slowly at a time. Now, I hope if anyone that I know reads this... PLEASE do NOT freak out. Honestly, it isn't THAT bad. So yeah, here's a poem (which I rarely write) and I hope you enjoy.
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~scooby25611 Jan 19, 2013  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
Okay, not freaking out or anything but hear me out because I want to try to ease your fears a bit. The flu is a perfectly normal, common disease around this time of year, and with today's medicine, most lives will be spared if it gets to a fatal point. (It normally goes away after a few days/week anyways without medicine unless your immune system is weak.) Not sure what the trama-drama stuff you're speaking of is, but if some of it is about me being so sad and gloomy lately, I'm better. Got to talk to Syv so I'm better. Whatever the other stuff is, if I haven't been told already, I'll help you through it. Okay? Got your back. ^^ By the way, this poem is really good as well. *hugs* Everything will be okay in the end. Promise.
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~Lillian13 Jan 19, 2013  Student Writer
Thnx man,
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~scooby25611 Jan 19, 2013  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
No prob, bro./shot But seriously, anything for a friend. (Er.. almost anything.)
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~Lillian13 Jan 20, 2013  Student Writer
Lol, wise choice of words.
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~scooby25611 Jan 21, 2013  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
XD
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~Arti-vibe Jan 19, 2013  Student Digital Artist
Wow this is deep. I love this Lil'
I'm sorry your feeling this way. But it will get better. Hows are the chapters coming along?
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~Lillian13 Jan 19, 2013  Student Writer
They're doing fine. Hopefully I will get on chatper ten or eleven soon!
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~Arti-vibe Jan 19, 2013  Student Digital Artist
Goooooood~
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~Lillian13 Jan 20, 2013  Student Writer
:DDD
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